Danielle has been one of my closest friends since high school. What started as a person to sit with at lunch has turned into a lifelong friendship. She is one of the only people in the world who truly know me. She knows just what to say, even if I don’t want to hear it. She has comforted me through breakups, and then the subsequent re-breakup when I inevitably tried to work things out with him. Her favorite activity is laying on the couch and watching TV, which is perfect because that is also my favorite activity. After high school, we went to colleges that were several hours away from each other, but she always made time to Facetime me, and we even got to visit each others’ school. Now that we’ve graduated, she is packing her bags and moving out to LA to get the job she has always wanted, and I couldn’t be more pissed.
It is paramount to mention that she does not even have a job. Or an apartment. She is just going and figuring it out as she goes. Which is incredibly brave and admirable. And also crazy stupid. What she should do is stay here with me until she figures it out. Research from the comfort of her home for a month, a few months, or maybe even forever. However long it takes for her to get her affairs in order and for me to finally let her leave. I’m just keeping her best interest in mind.
It’s really selfish, if we’re being honest. She didn’t even consult me first. I did not have a single say in the matter. In fact, after she decided that she was moving, she withheld the information because she “knew it would upset me.” As if I could cause a huge fucking scene and take to to internet to rant about she has wronged me. After I scream-cried for 45 minutes straight, she admitted that she didn’t tell me she was leaving because she couldn’t bring herself to do it because if she told me, then that would mean it was true. Lucky for her, I have a simple solution for that. If you don’t leave your friends, then you don’t have to tell them you are leaving. Duh! I have such great ideas, but I have no idea why she’d ever want to move away from me.
I can’t say I’m not proud of her. She’s moving with a few friends to somewhere she’s never been before. I just know that she has the intelligence and drive to work her way up to be living her dream in no time. I can’t wait to go out there and visit her. I’ve been dying to get out to LA myself, and a free place to stay would be awesome. I understand that there is a time where we all have to trust in the friendships we make and know in our hearts that no matter where we are, our friends will be with us. Danielle will always be a part of me, as well as the grudge I will hold against her for the rest of our lives..