You know “P.S. I Love You?” That totally painful, gut-wrenching movie where Gerard Butler dies but left his wife, Hilary Swank, a whole bunch of letters that made you sob hysterically and cry to your ex for three hours after drinking a bottle of rosé? Yeah. That movie. Well, in a totally more painful move, a real-life version of this happened between a girl in her dad.
In short, her dad passed away from cancer before her graduation. Horrible, right? But her dad, knowing he wouldn’t make it to some of the big events in her life, did something so damn adorable. 10/10 her post from Reddit will make you feel everything.
Today was my graduation and my dad couldn’t be there because he passed away just last month. Today, I got a card in his handwriting congratulating me. Written in the card was an email account and password, which I thought was strange. I logged in, and there are hundreds of emails, all from him. The subjects are all different events that may take place in my life and some more “random” ones like “Open when you had an embarrassing moment” or “Open when mom you and mom are fighting.” Each email contains a word document and a video attachment. I opened the graduation one, and I am in absolute tears. I never thought I’d be able to really hear his voice again or see him again. This one was recorded the day he and my mom broke the news to us about how many more months he has to live due to his cancer. I know this because he’s wearing the shirt I bought him, and he wore the shirt the whole day before he noticed the “m” sticker on it. This was before he started chemo. I forgot how he looked and sounded like before he had cancer. I don’t know when the others are recorded.
I’m sorry if this isn’t the place for it. I wanted to share it, but I didn’t know to whom. This is the best gift I could have ever asked for: an infinite amount of time with my dad. Now, he’s with me forever, wherever, and whenever. I love him and I miss him.
So. I cried in public while casually reading this. I can not imagine the pain of losing a parent, but the comfort it must have brought to know that he still cared about all of the important moments in her life brings such joy to my cold, bitter heart. I hope she found some peace in this, and I hope we all squeeze our parents a little tighter or tell them we love them just a little bit more..
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